Soul seeks something divine.

Ego seeks everything. She’s a squirrel scrambling on life’s limb.

Soul sings and dances when I write, pray, meditate, walk in the woods, or look into baby Mia’s eyes and catch a glimpse of God.

Soul stretches in feminine containers and communities. She likes to hold hands and skip. She digs writers, artists, musicians, and sexy men.

When I dance and swing my hips, Soul and Ego kiss.

When I get grounded and attune with my angels and guides, I’m free.

But, this human American life costs money, as Ego likes to remind me. She’s not wrong.

And yet, I’ve been held by Grace’s hands of abundance and reminded what’s important.

“What’s that?” Ego Asks, “Did you say you volunteered to go broke? You don’t like money? You just want to sit around and meditate? Maybe learn to paint?”

Soul smiles. She always smiles.

“Oh Ego, I know you’re dying to get out and prove yourself worthy to this world. You’d go out—to the bar, the store, the sales job, anything to avoid Insecurity or Loneliness.”

Soul soothes, “It’s ok, honey. Come, sit with me. Together, we’ll smooth this out. Let me tell you a secret, Ego: I love you. You and I have a divine destiny.”

Going within is falling in love with Self, all her facets of brilliance, and imperfections of personality.

Soul continues, “Going within—and working on and toward our Big Dream is our courtship. So many dates to meditate, write, pray, practice Reiki and Kundalini, weave a history, the path we’ve walked through the forest of life. Thank you for joining me on this journey. Ego, I know you want to run. You resist my touch. It’s ok, baby. I know you’re scared.

Another year is ending, and you fear you haven’t done enough, been enough, or made enough progress. Sweetheart, come here. Come here. Come IN. Let Soul rock you.”

“See, Grace comes to turn the page on another year to give you a fresh perspective. You get to choose again. Do you want to come inside with me? Your friends are here.

Truth never looked so dazzling, like Lady Liberty covered in stars. And Destiny, she’s a queen, like Diana and Elizabeth. When you go in, you’ll find a thousand queens rising. Peace, she’s inside, too—lighting a fire and serving teas from faraway lands.

But Ego, you want to go outside to meet a man, or make some cash, or get drunk on distraction. You want to be entertained!

Trust me, Ego. Come inside. Let Love of Everything seduce you.

Where do you want to be? Noise and Chaos await you on the corner with their friends Judgement and Remorse. You can go out if you want.”

“Will you be sad?” Ego asks.

“It doesn’t matter if we go within or go without. We’ll be together. It’s just that when you go too fast and chase everything, I get quiet and you don’t hear me.”

“You’re right,” Ego says, “Sometimes I need the noise. I’m seduced by the drama. But listening to you, being with you, feels right. I’d like to come inside tonight.”

Soul smiles. She always smiles.

“Yes,” she says, “Let’s face the morning together, naked, happy and hungry to taste the new year.”

Cheers! May you find yourself dancing with possibility in 2020.