Sarah Entrup says, “Getting stronger is a big deal. It takes effort. It takes work. You have to get stronger than your impulse to dive into a ditch.”
Sh*t! I had no idea how powerful my urge to swerve into ditches is. Not one ditch, because baby, I can pass up one, two, three, fourteen ditches in a row. Then, bam!
Like I haven’t done an ounce of work, I get a case of the f*ck-its so bad death invites. Why wouldn’t it? That’s where too many of my loved ones live. I want to go—into that ditch.
No, this isn’t a note about suicide. This is about the realization that yes, we’ve done a buttload of work, but when the call to death and darkness has haunted since childhood, in between seasons of success and joy, the demand for strength Sarah speaks of is as mighty as a Mt. Everest climb.
How strong is our impulse to dive verses how strong is it to climb?
I’m a Scorpio. I’ve gone through metamorphosis a multitude of times. Most of us have or we wouldn’t be here.
Today, I take to heart Sarah’s words about the requirement of strength. I let the idea settle in where the darkness hides in my history and subconscious.
We can’t control everything in our lives. But, I’m willing to take responsibility for the ditches I dove into—willingly, shamefully, secretly, fully. Ouch.
I reclaim my power to rise, not in the way I fantasize—Lalala, livin’ in the love and light!
In this moment, I acknowledge my ability to get stronger with daily practice.
We must make a commitment to ourselves. We start by refuting the claim: “I tried so hard and nothing works!”
We’re trying, and many things are working in our lives if we can just shift ever so slightly to see some beauty, some progress, some good amid the ridiculous chaos and bullsh*t. It’s there, but so are we—planted in this brutiful moment in history.
Sometimes falling apart, individually or as a society, is the path to getting stronger.
We’re aligning with truth and acknowledging lies—the ones we told ourselves and the ones we pretended to believe from others. We set our sights anew.
Now, we see the ditches like I learned to see and avoid the bastards and bad boys while the seduction still kisses me with temptation.
I make new choices, better choices. And, I bet you do, too.
2 thoughts on “How We Get Stronger.”
Um…why are you censoring yourself? It’s your blog. You can say all the “shits” and “fucks” you like.
Free yourself and Be yourself.
When I did my internship with elephant journal, they said” shits” and “fucks” affect the algorithm on FB. I post on both. It’s just an easy habit, so I kept it. It doesn’t feel like censoring.